I’m pretty ill-disciplined

Its just another one of those sleepless nights again.

Probably shouldn’t have drunk that late night double-shot coffee right before bed.. coffee/caffeine never really did affect me before though. (Or maybe I just didn’t notice)

Anyway, yeah, I wanted to confess that I haven’t been really disciplined lately. I’ve set a goal to post at least once a week, on wednesday ideally. I gave myself this deadline so that I know that I have to do something by then. If not, i’ve failed for that week. And judging by my performance the past 2 weeks, i’ve failed terribly. I could give you guys an excuse and try to convince myself that its my final exams now in 3rd year of uni, but if i’m really being honest with myself and you guys (which I am trying to be), its not all due to this. I procrastinate. I put things off, and delay doing certain things sometimes. This blog was precisely the reason for this reason though. I wanted to keep myself accountable and record my life’s progress through the years, and hopefully (maybe eventually), see some progress and new developments in myself, be it physically, mentally, emotionally, intellectually or spiritually. Whatever. As long as there’s progress, I think its a step in the right direction.

Anyway, i’m rambling on again at 2.24am urgh. Why can’t I sleep when I need to? Sometimes wish I could create some kind of on/off switch to sleep and wake up immediately so I don’t have to deal with all these procrastination shit. I know i know though.. i’m still working on my self-discipline and sleeping/waking up early and stuff.. been trying or aiming to sleep by 10pm and get up by 5am eventually (just like those super productive people you read about all the time).. currently failing terribly at that. One step at a time I guess.

On a side note, i’ve been thinking of writing a book over the past couple years on what drives somebody to want to achieve and succeed in life. To be someone that people may look and think of when they think of success in life. I am aware that success for everyone is different and we all have different definitions and goals in life. What success is for someone, may be a total failure for another. Yet, I would like to try and distill what success can be for a person, and at the same time, try to understand what drives a person to want to ”make it” in life. Also, I am thinking of getting a couple of people to contribute to this book. People from different countries, from different walks of life, and at different stages of life too. E.g. University undergraduates, medical doctors, pastors, army personnel, teachers, lecturers, post-grad Phd researchers etc. And ask them this simple question: “What drives you to do what you do in life? What is your driving factor? And why? What is your definition of success in life, and why?” Of course, I will try to avoid getting textbook typical answers that we all might give. Really just want to try and boil everything down to why do you do what you do, and is that helping you in your pursuit of happiness and success? Because thats what we all are trying to achieve in life isn’t it? Maximal happiness for us and our loved ones. Or is it just for some people? What do you guys think of this idea? Would you be keen to read such a book? I’ve also been thinking of a potential title for it. I’ve come up with a couple, like “The Driving Factor”, or “What is Success?”, or “Why do you do what you do?” I don’t know. My favourite one is still “The Driving Factor”. The rest still sound pretty cliché and lame. If you guys have any good book title ideas I would love to hear it!

I’ve also been spending some thought to my financial situation, both currently and in the future. Considering the fact that I might be spending many more years in university trying to pursue a medical degree/postgrad degree, I am faced with an opportunity cost of potential income lost for every additional year that I study. Plus many other expenses and things too. Thus, I have been wondering what kind of side hustles I can do, that would be able to generate some form of passive income to help supplement and maybe, help me save some money too. (Because we all know the power of compounding and time to start saving/investing asap)

Currently, I am a lab demonstrator in the university, and am also a part time violin teacher from home. But I am not satisfied with where I am, and believe that I am able to do much more. Of course I am aware that being a student, my primary role is to be a good student and focus on my studies. But I strongly believe that if we can all afford to have some form of leisure/recreational time, why not just be productive during these times and do something that you enjoy and if done well, might even start generating some side income too? I am a strong believer in doing something you enjoy and focusing solely to do it well. Like they say, you can be a Jack of all trades, but a master of none. And that is the last thing I want to be. I have heard so many people say that the internet is the future, and I thoroughly agree with it. It has given our generation the power and accessibility to millions more people and potential consumers than before. We can market things almost anywhere, to anyone. What limits us is our imagination, and what we allow ourselves to dream and be. The sky is the limit.

Anyhow, I can keep going on and on, but I should probably try to sleep.. or maybe just toss and turn on the bed.. Hais.

I finish my exams on the 25th June, and I intend to possibly make daily posts or close to daily posts during my 1 month holiday break! I am absolutely looking forward to it!!! Ohman. You know I used to think how ironic it was that we get all excited about the holidays when it hasn’t actually come yet, and when it does, the excitement just kinda fades away? The joy and excitement all comes in the anticipation and waiting. Thats what makes it all worth it i’ve realised.

Best regards

Paul Chong

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